Why Can't I See What He Does?
Chapter 14
Kevin and I were just lying in my bed cuddling until I heard a faint knock at my door. I sat up, “Come in,” I said as loud as I could, which still wasn’t very loud. Cindy walked in, and stomped right over to my bed and glared at me and Kevin. “Don’t you ever scare me like that again!” she screamed and pointed her finger at me. I jumped as soon as I heard her raise her voice. Kevin softly rubbed my arm to sooth me, it helped a little, but I’ve never seen Cindy yell at anyone before. “You’re like a daughter to me, do you know how worried I was about you?!” I awkwardly fiddled with a ring on my finger so I wouldn’t have to make eye contact with her.
“And you!” she turned to Kevin, “how dare you attack her when she doesn’t even have the strength to stand?!” Kevin just looked down at the floor. I could tell he was very ashamed of himself. “Her blood sugar is un-Godly low, and you had her up chasing after you! What’s the matter with you?!” This was starting to upset me, she’s in here talking about Kevin attacking me, but what is she doing? The same thing, the only difference is now I’m lying down.
“Cindy, please,” I tried to calm her. “Kevin was very upset, and he didn’t know that I was so sick. Plus, it was my decision to go after him, he didn’t make me go running after him,” I told her hesitantly. I’m not use to talking back to people, especially my boss.
Cindy sighed. “I’m sorry, you’re right, but don’t you ever do that again. Understand me young lady? When you’re in a hospital bed you are never suppose to get out of it unless a nurse is here, and you know that,” she had the tone my mother use to have when she lectured me. I just nodded. Cindy leaned down and hugged me, “I was just worried ‘Lana. Like I said, you’re like a daughter to me, and I’m sorry Kevin. I was angry, but if you ever see her out of this bed again without permission from someone, you better put her right back. Understand?” Kevin just nodded, and mumbled, “Yes Ma’am.”
Once Cindy was out the room Kevin started to gently stroke my hair, but all I could do was sit there about think about Cindy yelling at me. I mean I know it was because she cares about me, but why did she have show it like that?
I sat there thinking about how everyone who has supposedly cared about me treated me in the past. I was lost so deep in thought that I didn’t even notice when Kevin tried to talk to me.
“’Lana, what’s up? Are you ok?” Kevin sounded so concerned. I sighed trying to suppress my urge to cry, but to no avail; I broke down crying.
Kevin wrapped his arms tighter around me and pulled me closer. “Alana, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?” I wanted to answer him, but I just couldn’t. I was so upset I couldn’t stop crying. Now might be the best time to tell him. I just hope he doesn’t think differently about me. I took a deep shaky breath.
“Kevin,” I started out quietly, “I’m not use to being treated so nicely by guys,” I sniffled as I spoke. “What do you mean, Alana?” Kevin looked confused. I just took a deep breath trying to brace myself for his reaction.
“Kevin, the reason I was so hesitant to go out with you at first and why I’m so nervous being with you is because of the way I’ve been treated before by men. My father left me and my mother when I was younger, my first boyfriend I’ve ever had cheated on me, and then my second and last boyfriend he use to…” I couldn’t get the words out. I started sobbing and Kevin pulled me into his chest. He gently stroked my hair and rocked me back and forth. “Shh, it’s ok now Alana. I’m here and I would never do anything to upset you. I’m sorry that I walked out of here earlier. I shouldn’t have done that, but as you can see I came back. I’ll always come back for you, Alana” he whispered into my ear.
I cried harder, “I know, that’s why I was so scared when you walked out of here. You treat me like a princess, and I don’t want to lose such a great man,” I whimpered. He stroked my back, “You won’t lose me, ‘Lana, I promise.” Kevin softly stroked my cheek and kissed my tears away.
I leaned back into Kevin’s chest and slowly fell asleep.
