Why Can't I See What He Does?
Chapter 7
Kevin and I were in his car riding to our next “activity” as he liked to call it. We were both sitting in silence just enjoying the radio. The best part was it wasn’t awkward silence. While I was lost deep in thought trying to figure out where we were going next, Kevin slowly sneaked his hand over and gently laced his fingers in between mine. I looked over at him and smiled so I could reassure him that I was ok with it.
“So,” I started, “you going to tell me where we’re going now?” I heard him chuckle. “I didn’t tell you where we were going the first time, why would I tell you now?”
I shrugged, “I dunno, just hoping you would.” He glanced at me. “Well, you liked the first surprise, did you not?” I smiled thinking back on how sweet he was, and how much planning he must have done to do what he did. I smiled at him, “I loved it,” I admitted.
My answer brought a huge smile to Kevin’s face. I glanced back out the window to see where we were going. We were going up a huge hill that looked sort of familiar to me. When we reached the top I knew exactly where we were.
We were at the Hill-Top Picnic side. Kevin parked and we both got out of the car. I walked to the back of the car to meet Kevin; he had opened up the trunk to get something out. When I got a better look, I saw that he was getting a picnic basket and blanket out.
“Do you need help carrying anything?” I asked him. I didn’t want him to have to struggle with anything. He shook his head. “No, thank you. I got it all, don’t worry.” I was a little hesitant at first, but Kevin managed to get everything together, and hold my hand while walking to the spot that we chose.
Kevin put the basket down, so I took the chance to grab the blanket from him. He let me have it, so I laid it on the ground and sat down. Kevin sat down next to me and pulled the basket over to us.
“I hope you like PB&J sandwiches,” Kevin told me grinning. I laughed quietly. “Sounds perfect.” It was now dark, and Kevin and I were sitting on the blanket, eating our sandwiches just looking up at the stars.
“Kevin,” I started. He looked at me, “yes, Alana?”
I reached over and took his hand. “Thank you for such a wonderful evening. Everything has been so great. No one has ever done anything like this for me, and I just want to you know this means the world to me.” Kevin smiled and gently squeezed my hand.
“Alana, I know we haven’t known each other very long, but I can honestly say that you are one of the sweetest people I have ever met. I’m sorry that you have not been treated the way you should have been in the past, but I promise that as long as I’m here, I’ll treat you the way you deserve to be treated.” My eyes started to water. Oh no, this is the second time tonight that this boy has almost made me cry.
Kevin must have noticed my tearing up because he leaned closer to me, putting his arm around my shoulders. I sniffled a little, trying to calm myself. “Can I ask you something?” I looked up at Kevin.
“You just did,” he smiled at me. I looked in his eyes and smiled. “You can ask me anything,” Kevin told me with a sincere look in his eyes.
“Remember, when I ask this I do not mean for you to take offense to this at all,” I started slowly. Kevin just nodded. “Well…you are a rock star…how can you be so…” I couldn’t find the right words.
“…Down to earth?” Kevin finished the question for me. I nodded. “Well…for starters, I have a wonderful family to always remind me where I came from. I also have a very strong faith in God, so I just try to stay true to my beliefs.” I nodded, and smiled a little. Why could I not have met him earlier? Why did I have to date jerks? This was just too good to be true. It is…Soon he is going to be gone. This won’t last.
With all these thoughts I just can’t hold it in any longer. I started to cry.
“Hey, hey. Why are you crying?” Kevin pulled me into his chest. I just shook my head. “Was it something I said?” This caused me to look up at him. “No, of course not…Well, actually…but, you didn’t say anything wrong!” I told him before he could get the wrong impression.
“Then what is it?” he placed a finger under my chin and slowly lifted my head up to look me in the eyes. I sighed.
“You’re just too good to be true. You’re the most wonderful man I have ever met, and I’m scared.”
“What? Why?” he sounded so concerned.
“I’m starting to really like you…and you’re only going to leave soon,” I finished in a whisper. He pulled back a little to place both of his arms on my shoulders.
“Alana, listen to me…I like you,” he paused for a second, “yes, I like you, so I’m not just going to let you go. You’ve got to trust me. I will not just wake up one morning and leave you, do you understand me?”
I looked in his eyes. He wasn’t lying to me. I just know it, I can tell. I nodded, and he pulled me back into his chest. “Kevin?” I whispered. “Yes, Alana?”
“Please, don’t hurt me.” Kevin gently placed his hand on my head, and ran his fingers thru my hair. “I promised you before that I wouldn’t, and I keep my promises,” he whispered into my ear. I nodded again and closed my eyes, resting against his chest.
We stayed like that for a good ten minutes, when finally he sat me up. “Hey, I have one last surprise for you.” I laughed. Him and his surprises…
I watched him as he got up and ran to the car. I laid down on the blanket and closed my eyes, feeling very tired due to my emotional breakdown.
I felt Kevin sit down next to me, so I sat up to see him holding his guitar. He smiled at me, and slowly began playing and singing a song. He looked me in the eyes the whole time he played, never once breaking eye contact. I gave him a smile when he was done playing.
“That was beautiful,” I complimented. “…Not as beautiful as you,” and with that he leaned over and softly kissed the corner of my lips.
